LEE - P FROG

Creativity makes a leap, then looks to see where it is.
-Mason Cooley

L      E      A      P

So, despite the happy-happy picture, my good mood has vanished.

And not just because today was busy.  Monday is my ridiculous day; what was I thinking?  Math so early in the morning?  I can barely handle math late in the afternoon, after a nap, when I'm nice and wide awake.  But whatever, at least Monday is over and I can slide through the rest of my week fairly easily.  Except for the fact that I've gone from slap-happy to kind of irritated in a fairly short span of time.

Really.  More characters.  The last time we made new characters, I dragged my feet.  I didn't particularly want to.  Now, I still don't particularly want to, even if the setting would be interesting.  It would be difficult to establish formal relationships and have character interaction with this kind of setting, though, and while it kind of bothers me, I know I shouldn't worry about it.  Because it probably won't last more than the evening before I go back to being put on the back burner.

Not that I'm complaining about the art, either.  I like art.  I like to look at pictures that are relevant to me.  I like to help plan those pictures, since I can't take any part in contributing.  What I don't like is the amount of time that it's been solely pictures, and the most playing we can come together for is a new scene.  I don't want to do a new scene.  I want to sit down and work out part five and post it - but saying that makes me sound like a nag, and I hate that.  I don't want to always be the one who brings up 'hey, I want to play.'  It makes me feel like I'm bothering her, or that she's the one dragging her feet because she doesn't actually want to play, she's just appeasing me.

Now I'm sitting down with my Taco Bell - some nice, fattening, college-student-diet food, and it's making me feel a little better.  I think I'm actually starting to like the idea of making new characters.  But then again, it might be me trying to psychologically trick myself into thinking that way.  Or probably not; I need to stop thinking like a psych major.  Even though I am.

Or maybe I'm tapping into my bipolar-ness that was really prevalent in like, eighth grade.  I was a nut in eighth grade, no joke.  I wasn't technically bipolar - but I was damn near close to it, at least at school.  You don't even know; I was fuckin nuts.  But that isn't the point.  I think I'm starting to feel better.  Maybe it was the fact that I was so hungry all day that was putting me in such a bad mood.  Or maybe my moods play leapfrog like my title suggests.  That's probably it too.

So now that I'm eating something warm and filling, I feel a lot better.  About all of this.  Blogging and eating, man.  Two things that are guaranteed to put me in a better mood.  So now I'm going to traipse off with my tea and try to work out the kinks in my biology notes... Test on Friday, and I'm studying already!  Man, I feel good.

So hopefully I won't undergo a major tone shift the next time I blog, since it seems to be becoming a habit.  I kind of like this.  Not gonna lie.  It's fun.  And it keeps me exercising my fingers - not that they really need it, but whatever.  You know?  Anyway.  I'm out.  Gotta eat.

PEACE.

-lee